Thursday, January 12, 2006

How Many Times?

How Many Times?

This is a question that was asked of Jesus. How many times should we forgive our brother?

His answer was 70x7. Does this mean only 490 times? No I think not. It means all the time. This, as I am finding out is not easy. It is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. In order to be more Christ like and to show the Love of Christ, I still have to, regardless of my personal feelings.

The last few days have tested me more than I have ever been tested before. I am still being tested.

It is so hard to do this when you keep getting slapped in the face for doing so. My pride has been shattered, I have been ripped apart, had lie after lie told about me everywhere, and all by the same person. Why would I put myself through this? Because God said so!! It is that simple. Sometimes just the thought that God will bless me and that He is smiling at me is the only thing that keeps me going. I know that I am doing the right thing, I know that God is happy with me, but that doesn't take away the pain or hurt. While she has been pretty much quiet on the homefront, she is still telling the lies!! This hurts.

I just keep pressing on to the high mark and I will continue to do so as long as I am able. This is the hardest thing I have or will ever do.

This includes keeping silent and letting the lies continue so that she isn't embarrassed. Just the hyprocricy is killing me. While telling the lies, she claims that I want to blackmail her with the truth? Huh? Go figure!

She claims that she is taking her entire bottle of sleep medicine, but then claims that I am creating "drama" when in I call everybody I know that knows her to try and help her. Then gets furious with me and tells me that I don't care about her and that is why I "created drama". Huh? Would it be showing that I care if I just let her die? How is that caring? Huh? When saying that I was praying, is met with being cursed at.

Sometimes I wish I could just open up my chest and show what is really in there. Boy, would everybody (well not everybody, only those who claim that I don't care) be surprised at how much I do care.

What is a person to do? Pray! That and continue pressing on, doing what God wants me to do.

This goes against my grain. When attacked, I want to attack back. When hurt, I want to hurt back. But that wouldn't be showing the Love of Christ. That would not please my God. So I do the only thing I can do, pray. Hope, pray, and have faith that my actions will overshadow the lies. If God is for me, who can be against me? No one. He is the only one that matters. Not public opinion, especially the opinion of those who have hurt me. I need to let go and let God take care of it. I need to trust that God will take care of it. Trust that God is pleased with me. Isn't that all that matters anyways? Yes it is!

Just remember, God looks at the heart. Only He knows what is in there. I know that my God is very pleased with me. :)
posted by Star @ 8:08 PM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Forgiveness and Purpose

Forgivness and Purpose


Any one who knows me knows that I left __ with alot of hurt and humiliation. I was so bitter for so long.

Like J I went back to my former self. I felt that it was the last nail in my "christian" coffin(sp). I had been hurt by christians all of my life. Not just little hurts, but hurts that last a life time. I went out badmouthing __ and christianity in general.

Over the last few months, things have been starting to change for me. It was like lightbulbs flashing in my head. The first was "why should I let them send me to hell with them?" The only person thatwas getting hurt here was me.

OK they hurt me, OK they are pretend christians, why would I allow them to control my spirit and where I am?

SO I gave my heart back to God. Once the anger over christianity was gone, there was nothing left to fight against and it was just between me and my God.I know we have all heard the "forgive as God as forgiven us". I know that I have heard this my entire life, but it never clicked before last week. I know that I have sinned. I have cursed God, I have called on demons, I have lived in ways I know I should not.

Are their sins any worse than mine? To me it might seem so, because it is so personal, but in the large scheme of things, no they aren't. It just doesn't seem logical for me to sin because they are.

I have found myself to be as much of a hyprocrite as they are.While I have sat back and spent most of my time judging them and their actions, proving to myself that they arent' real christians, I have failed to act and behave as I know I should. I have not treated people with the same love and respect that I have judged others for not giving to me.

To any of those here that I have hurt with my attitude, I am sorry. Just know that I am human, but I will work on it here as I am doing IRL.

That being said, I think that a new forum where everybody is welcomed and shown the love of Christ, regardless of where their paths are, is what God would want.

Honestly, I have been involved with an Ex-christian site. This site is all about anti-christianity. I don't want to be anti anything. Then it would seem as if there is another purpose here as opposed to the purpose God would have us be.

The purpose of "showing the world the love of Christ",should be first and formost.

Sorry if I seem overly pushy on my views. I only wished to share what God is doing my in my life. These are HUGE lightbulb moments for me and they have changed my life.

With love,Deb
posted by Star @ 6:25 PM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Warfare

Warfare


Warfare. I have been taught that Christians are in warfare with "spirits of darkness" The scripture they use to proclaim this is:



Ephesians 6:10-13
10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. 11 Put on the whole Armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. 13 Wherefore take unto you the whole Armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand

I was taught that when people do bad things to us and persecute us it really isn't them but the "wiles of the devil". in other words the spirits are "speaking in their ear" type of thing.

Why does it always seem that my biggest temptation always find it's way to be before me.

Ok you all know my past so lets get personal. No matter where I go drugs always seem to be put before me. I don't dress or act like a druggy so why does it seem to be offered wherever I go. I have other temptations but that seems to be the major ones. It also seems to explain how come one person can get hurt by the same thing by totally different people. In other words my biggest temptation is always put before me. You biggest temptation always find it's way before you. That kind of thing. Or when we get hurt it isn't the people as much as the influence from the devil. I am not doing a good job at explaining this.

I agree that the excuse "the devil made me do it" isn't any excuse at all. OK let me try again in the only way i know how:

Say I had a gambling problem. I meet "B" at school. I get to be friends with "B" and without B knowing about my problem, He invites me to play poker Friday night. This isn't B's fault and it wouldn't be mine (tho if i went that would be my responsibility) but the temptation is there.

John 10:10 - The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly

I was taught that the devil and his cohorts(?) are responsible for death, illness, and so called natural disasters. But we must understand that sometimes it is simply nature and personalities that cause things to happen.

My son decided one day that he wanted to talk to his daddy while using the bathroom. He then dropped my cell into the toilet. The next day, my computer monitor fried. The day after that my motherboard fried. So, in three days I lost my cell phone, my monitor, and my motherboard.

Now, I admit that my first thoughts were that "the devil was out to get me" because of the work I was doing, both here and in my personal life. Is that giving him too much credit? Probably so.

The thing is that every time that I work my hardest to follow God, things happen to me. This is when my life has a habit of falling apart. Every time!

But can the devil be blamed because my 5 yr. old dropped my cell into the toilet? No, not really.

As far as the computer goes, even though I had my motherboard replaced, there wasn't any reason for it to fry in the first place. It was only 2 years old!! But reality is that stuff happens. I bought a cheap computer and I got what I paid for. A computer brand that has a habit of frying as soon as the warranty is up. Can I blame the devil because of a bad choice I made? No.

I think that there is a danger in looking for the "devil" in everything that goes wrong in our lives.

I have always said that if we keep looking under rocks in order to find something, we will see it whether or not it is really there.

This is what is so dangerous in expecting to see the "devil did it" in everything bad that happens. We will see it even if it really isn't there. Sometimes, it is as simple as us making bad decisions, that causes these things to happen. We need to look and listen to what God has to say and not our heads. If we are under attack from the devil, then we will know from our spirits, not our heads
posted by Star @ 2:18 PM
Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Thought Control

Thought Control


There has been alot of talk about forgiveness as of late. My question was always how to forgive and continue to forgive. I mean I can forgive, but then as soon as something else happens all the hurt comes rushing forward. How do I stop this? After much prayer on this, I had another Lightbulb moment.

CONTROL YOUR THOUGHTS

The scripture that popped up in my mind was Philipians 4: 8

Quote:
8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.


When the only thoughts we have going on in our minds is all the garbage that this world has to offer, then that is what is going to come out. Garbage in, Garbage out. But when we think and keep our minds on God and the good things, then that is what will come out. In the hassles of life come crashing in, lets not dwell on them. Lets dwell on the good things.

Quote:

4 Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say, Rejoice.

5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand.

6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication
with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.


7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.


I know that we have all heard verse 8. I had to memorize it in school when I was 12. There are some more commandments there as well.

Quote:
Rejoice in the Lord, always, again I say rejoice.


This means all of the time. Even when life seems to be getting you down. It would seem to me that when life is at it's worst, this would be when rejoicing is most needed. It reminds you of who you are in Christ. I am loved by God. I am a daughter of God. Remember what He has done for you. Jesus loved us so much that He suffered and died for us. Rejoice!! The bible talks about making a joyful noice to the Lord. I know that for me it is definantly just noise. I can't carry a tune. But to the Lord it is a sweet sound.

If we are praising and rejoicing in the Lord, and praying; how are we going to have the hurt and pain and negativity going through our minds? We can't. The scriptures promise peace.

Quote:
7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.


Isn't that what we all want? Peace? A peace that passes ALL understanding? WOW!!

Quote:
9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.


Again, the bible promises that the God of peace shall be with us.


So the next time life has you down, remember:

Rejoice, pray, give praise, think on the good things!! This is the way to have peace.
posted by Star @ 7:15 PM
Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Monday, January 02, 2006

Are they from God??

1 John 4:

1 Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.
2 Hereby know ye the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesseth that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is of God:
3 And every spirit that confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that spirit of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world.

and

14 And we have seen and do testify that the Father sent the Son to be the Saviour of the world.
15 Whosoever shall confess that Jesus is the Son of God, God dwelleth in him, and he in God.
16 And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.


There are those who say that Jesus is NOT the son of God and claim that He was just a prophet.

Muslims are in that catagory. There are other paths as well who claim that they come from God but do not believe that Jesus was or is God.

The "so called" prophet muhammad is one of those. he claimed that he was a prophet of God but denies that Jesus was God in the Flesh. So can we consider muhammad a propeht of God? No we can not.

That is all there is to it.

Now as far as testing the Spirits.

1 Timothy 4:1-5
1 Now the Spirit speaketh expressly, that in the latter times some shall depart from the faith, giving heed to seducing spirits, and doctrines of devils;

How can we know the difference?

Test the words of the prophets against the Word of God. If it doesn't line up with the Word then it is false and the prophet is false.

The other way is to look at their Fruit.

2 Peter 2:

1 But there were false prophets also among the people, even as there shall be false teachers among you, who privily shall bring in damnable heresies, even denying the Lord that bought them, and bring upon themselves swift destruction.
2 And many shall follow their pernicious ways; by reason of whom the way of truth shall be evil spoken of.

3 And through covetousness shall they with feigned words make merchandise of you: whose judgment now of a long time lingereth not, and their damnation slumbereth not.
4 For if God spared not the angels that sinned, but cast them down to hell, and delivered them into chains of darkness, to be reserved unto judgment;

8 (For that righteous man dwelling among them, in seeing and hearing, vexed his righteous soul from day to day with their unlawful deeds;) 9 The Lord knoweth how to deliver the godly out of temptations, and to reserve the unjust unto the day of judgment to be punished:

10 But chiefly them that walk after the flesh in the lust of uncleanness, and despise government. Presumptuous are they, selfwilled, they are not afraid to speak evil of dignities.
11 Whereas angels, which are greater in power and might, bring not railing accusation against them before the Lord.
12 But these, as natural brute beasts, made to be taken and destroyed, speak evil of the things that they understand not; and shall utterly perish in their own corruption;
13 And shall receive the reward of unrighteousness, as they that count it pleasure to riot in the day time. Spots they are and blemishes, sporting themselves with their own deceivings while they feast with you;
14 Having eyes full of adultery, and that cannot cease from sin; beguiling unstable souls: an heart they have exercised with covetous practices; cursed children:
15 Which have forsaken the right way, and are gone astray, following the way of Balaam the son of Bosor, who loved the wages of unrighteousness;
16 But was rebuked for his iniquity: the dumb ass speaking with man's voice forbad the madness of the prophet.
17 These are wells without water, clouds that are carried with a tempest; to whom the mist of darkness is reserved for ever.
18 For when they speak great swelling words of vanity, they allure through the lusts of the flesh, through much wantonness, those that were clean escaped from them who live in error.

A corrupt tree brings forth corrupt fruit. But a good tree brings forth good fruit.

Mt 7:17
Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.

So what are the good and corrupt fruits?

Gal 5:

19 Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,
20 Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,
21 Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
23 Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.

24 And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.
25 If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.
26 Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.

Now compare the works of the flesh with what is said in the scripture above from 2 Peter.

This is the other way to test the prophets and see if they are from God.
posted by Star @ 4:02 PM

Shooting the Wounded

Shooting the wounded


I wrote this concerning a person that is hurting right now!! I felt like she was being kicked while she was down and it isn't right!! Would they do that to someone who was physically hurt? I do not think so!! They wouldn't pour sand into a wound, so why is this any different?The girl is hurting and is lashing out the only way that she can!! Grrrr....

[quote]Coming from someone who has been there and done that........ as many
here can attest to.... there are some things I would like to add: Actions done
in perceived hurt, bitterness, or depression; are not actions from the heart.

Whether or not the hurt was done intentionally is really irrelevant, it
still hurts.

When I flipped flopped, it was because of pain and when I was hurting
it seemed as if it was always one group that did the hurting. My head can and
would tell you that all humans are infallible, it isn't just one group or
another. But a person that is hurting isn't able to understand this. All they
see and feel and know is the pain, done once again by _____ (fill in the
blank).

SO all of the hurt is projected on that one group. (am I making
sense?) When the anger and hurt is all gone, then a rational decision can be
reached. Until then, a hurting person will continue to rail and scream (in my
case) against such group. It doesn't always happen to be religion.

A girl who is raped by a group of a different race will rail and hate
the race that hurt her. Until they are able to deal with the pain, they won't
have the capability to realize that not everybody of that race is responsible.
And before she is able to understand this, she expects and will take almost
everything, no matter how small, as an attack by said race. See what I am
saying?

She is hurting. She has been hurt before by christians. A topic that she is
very sensitive about, was attacked (again whether or not it was real is
irrevelvant, it was real to her), it just proved that "all christians" want to
hurt her. That all christians will hurt her, all the time.

I understand this and my heart goes out to her. I of all people understand
where she is coming from. I have been there, many times over.

I only say this because I ask that you show compassion and understanding.
Please pray for her and don't knock her while she is down. She needs that more
than judgements.[/quote]

This of course was met with "I thought what we had done was open the discussion out a bit rather than make any judgements or mockings. I thought we were looking at such issues in a general, rather than specific way. "

How can it not be "in a specific way?". The first post in the topic was "can I go back to paganism" and "once again I am hurt by christians".

V, I am sorry for any hurt that I caused you. Please believe me when I say that is was never my intent to hurt you. I am sorry.
posted by Star @ 6:04 PM

OK. This is my first attempt a blogging. Lets see what happens
posted by Star @ 1:50 PM